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Missing

Do you ever feel completely lost? I feel as though the world is hold out my letter of rejection but, here I am trying to fight my way back in. I feel truly lost, I feel lost about my future, about my relationship, and the rest of my life. I'm finishing my second year of college, and we're suppose to have our life figured out and here I am standing in the midst waiting for an an answer. Sometimes the universe needs to give you a sign to tell you what to do. Even the purest form of happiness can be lost in the midst of the world. I'm preparing to start my life over again, by leaving for London in the fall and to be honest I hope its everything I expect, and everything I don't.

 I feel lost, lost in love. I question being with him forever. Will it truly bring me happiness after the roses have fallen? I wonder why I can't stop thinking about whether we're perfect. It's as though something is missing from my life. Something is making me feel empty. I just don't know why. I feel lost in the future we have together. I feel lost as the diploma is handed to me. The question that rings in my head is, what now? What do I do with the rest of my life? Where do I go? I wonder why everything that I once felt sure of is now disappearing before my eyes. I hope for clarity but, no relief. I wonder why I question all the beliefs I once held true. Being next to you doesn't feel the same anymore. I can't tell you what's missing because I don't know. I hope I can tell you soon....

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