Believe In Time

So, here I am typing this at work when I probably should be studying but, I can't seem to get Monday off my mind that and that the SAT on Saturday is going to kill me. On Monday everything seemed to take a weird spiral making this week really strange. On Monday everything that was wrong seemed to happen, its all very abnormal. One of my friends got a new boyfriend, a couple of weeks ago and I'm like great another girl with a boyfriend to be all sappy with fabulous. So, as she tells us about him I realize he's in a band, now my interest has been caught; because secretly I've always wanted to date a guitarist. So, I tell my friend this and she tells her boyfriend, so he says that he'll find someone. So, thats how it all started. Her boyfriend did find someone, Nate. So, of course my friend and I look him up on facebook and I start to find myself starting to like him, we eventually start talking through facebook messaging and it moves on from there. He said we should h...

I know its been forever since I've been on or have written anything at all. Honestly this year has been driving me insane with all the madness. I still can't even believe that junior year is nearly over and I think I'm going to die. I take the SAT again on Saturday and I'm nervous as hell, one test defines who I am and will be, its insane! My love life, forget about it, its to complicated to explain. Honestly I know I'm making all the wrong choices yet, do so anyway. I guess its not my brightest ideas, but why do the wrong choices all feel so right? Why do all the wrong things in life seem like the more obvious choice? It seems as though the world is spinning its never going to end, is it? Everywhere I go all the voices bang against my head, making me want to just scream for it all to stop. All the pressure feels like a tower waiting to collapse, it feels as though a ton of bricks will fall right on top of me, crushing me underneath it all. Why can't I be ...