When the world turns where do you go? When you realize all that you knew was all fantasy what do you do? I just found out for myself someone might say they care but, the person I knew wasn't kidding they really do care and I lost it, I mean I'm a screw up I know it and won't hide from the truth because here it stands in front of me. I remember when my mom use to read stories to me when I was a little girl and I always ask her if fairytales came true and she always laugh saying if I believed they would they can come true. I always saw myself at the ball with my prince charming in my fairy tales but as time went by I started to loose the magic. Falling flat on my face like Cinderella before she became a princess into what I feared most now when I look into the mirror I can't find myself all I see is this, this girl... who waits for time to pass her slowly and she cries under the moonlight. Now when I think about my friends all I can hear is the constant "Ella I can't do this, I can't deal with you." It breaks my heart every time and all the time I try to put myself back together and I'm not even close, my world went swirling into something even I can't handle now the question is who can I trust? Even writing this makes me shiver I have never been filled with so much fear, because when I grew up I wasn't the little princess I'd always thought about, I became what I am today a cold girl on broken glass, I mean to be honest my whole life is just falling apart I mean the guy I like won't talk to me because I said some things I don't mean, because he's like my brother as much as he drives me crazy I still care nothing is going to change that. "I'm not a perfect person there's many things I wish I didn't do." If your out there than I hope you know you have to keep your promise just like I will keep mine. Ella
When the world turns where do you go? When you realize all that you knew was all fantasy what do you do? I just found out for myself someone might say they care but, the person I knew wasn't kidding they really do care and I lost it, I mean I'm a screw up I know it and won't hide from the truth because here it stands in front of me. I remember when my mom use to read stories to me when I was a little girl and I always ask her if fairytales came true and she always laugh saying if I believed they would they can come true. I always saw myself at the ball with my prince charming in my fairy tales but as time went by I started to loose the magic. Falling flat on my face like Cinderella before she became a princess into what I feared most now when I look into the mirror I can't find myself all I see is this, this girl... who waits for time to pass her slowly and she cries under the moonlight. Now when I think about my friends all I can hear is the constant "Ella I can't do this, I can't deal with you." It breaks my heart every time and all the time I try to put myself back together and I'm not even close, my world went swirling into something even I can't handle now the question is who can I trust? Even writing this makes me shiver I have never been filled with so much fear, because when I grew up I wasn't the little princess I'd always thought about, I became what I am today a cold girl on broken glass, I mean to be honest my whole life is just falling apart I mean the guy I like won't talk to me because I said some things I don't mean, because he's like my brother as much as he drives me crazy I still care nothing is going to change that. "I'm not a perfect person there's many things I wish I didn't do." If your out there than I hope you know you have to keep your promise just like I will keep mine. Ella
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