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First Stand


Ever feel like your under appreciated? Welcome to my life, being a maid is my future career I know common complaint of every kid but, this is getting ridiculous I mean when ever something goes wrong I'm always the first to be blamed even if it wasn't me but the source of all horridness is my step dad so conceded and selfish firstly I've taken notice that now whenever he wants something done it's always "I don't want" or "I want" like a little six year old, and excuse me for sounding disrespectful but I feel like I'm the assistant of some Hollywood star. Stuck doing everything for instance not too long ago he knew I had to read 'Pride and Prejudice' for school yet he asked me to take out the dog so I hurried and finished my page and then I was prepared to put him in the back however he says "No, I don't want to get in the habit of putting him (the dog) in the backyard we just fixed our lawn." If he doesn't want to let the dog in the back anymore why can't he walk him, and the claim is that he does, yeah once. When I literally do it 3 times a day, and he's even put an electric collar on the dog and I freed him from, not a good story but you don't abuse a dog like that sure even I have pulled my dog on his leash because he was simply being annoying however no matter annoying I would have never put a collar on the dog. On the other hand, fall is fast approaching and so is my birthday however I haven't the slightest clue on what I want surprisingly compared to any other year, usually I could be quite selfish because after watching a whole year of others birthdays go by I want as my presents as I can get my hands on however this year I think I've learned a lot I want to follow my Aunt's suit I want to make a difference even if it's something small truly think about it people can get so spoiled with millions of dollar house and now more than ever do people need help for once I want to see the warmth of another child smile from getting a gift or food to see someone else happy will make me feel the best of people but unlike others I want it to be done in silence I don't want to be on every television shown because of it I want to be able to see the joy without publicity. To see the joy of others is the happiness of one.

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