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I wanna be Me


I know I know it's been forever since I've actually written I can actually say I'm lost in more ways than one right now, lately I feel like the center of attention I have so many boys after me and so many girls wanna hang out and I have straight A's to anyone else this would be awesome but for some reason lately I can be the most bipolar person I can be so happy at one point at others I can be so depressed. I'll tell you the truth I'm still stuck on Walter although I would never admit it to his face, today he wouldn't even look at me like if he did his eyes would burn out of their sockets or something, to be honest that totally freaked me out. Although I'm so hung up on the idea of proving myself to him I have no idea why I just want him to see how amazing I am and who I really am. Please, like that'd ever happen. I'm stuck in my own world I'm trapped I have so many people in my ear lately to anyone else having so many friends would be awesome to me I can sometimes feel like my head is gonna explode because with so many people I can feel like everyone expects so much from me now I swear if I drop a few pounds I'll be breaking some necks. Just kidding. Anyway when I think to myself I just say that this is my life how do I wanna live it what do I want to do with it? But then the answer escapes me every time I try. Everyone always asks me about what I do and why and all I say is "I'm just being me." ~Liki

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