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Less than perfect


Today was an adventure lately I've been seeming to have more and more of those, which is what life is all about the adventure. I am dating a guy I truly like and so far everything has been pretty good, I just can't explain how I feel around him. Everything about him is different he's so gentle to my fragile heart and helps me heal it, after this whole year of dating around I think it was worth it. The only thing I wish is that I could take away the pain of those I hurt. The way this guy kisses me it's enough to keep me silent for hours (and if you know me I don't shut up, ever). However I'm still have problems with my best friend she's dating this guy I don't trust because of rumors I hear about him and how my best friend can't have a life and talk to her friends but he can. I feel like this guy is controlling her because the two are joined at the hip! I mean I don't know how to approach her anymore I mean we talk but I still feel like were distances apart. I just miss her being my best friend and she tells me all these excuses but they never solve any of the real questions in my mind. I just want to answer those questions running through my mind, I sometimes wonder though if life is all a delusion.

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