Lately the summer has become a complete drag, I've been doing nothing since summer started it seems; since I've come back from horse camp its just non stop work. In the time since I've been back I've painted my room and began to decorate it and been going to tutoring for three hours a day. Not exactly the summer classified under extraordinary, to make it all the worse my step-person (I just can't say the word because it is untrue) is making my life completely miserable. By never allowing me to have any time to sit on my laptop and surf the internet or anything. Rather constant chores await, I feel like Cinderella with an endless chore list. Though I can't complain that everything is bad, I have one secret that I will see the boy who made me take a look at life closely and made me smile till my face was stuck. Will he remember me? Or will he look at me with an empty face as if he never saw me. Memories of the past constantly creep up on me, Walter's face fills my mind, I don't think I'll ever get over him. He's the one thing that haunts me, his smile, his laugh, the way he makes a face when he's sad it all hurts too much, the pain grows deeper inside me cutting me at the very core. Even time hasn't helped only make me think of my mistakes which begin to fill me with grief and sorrow.
First, off I just wanna say thanks for all the people who read and listen to the struggles in my life. Second, I'm in complete shock that this is my 100th post! So, thanks for being there for me for four years! Anyway, to get this post going, I wanna just write.... it probably won't make a lot of sense when I finish but it'll be different, to say the least. So, Kataya goes back to Ukraine on Saturday and at this point I am pretty upset that she's leaving, she's become a little sister to me, and her smile could light up the whole world. However, in a malicious and selfish way I am kind of happy because for the last month my mom was too busy with Kataya to really notice me, strange how you want your parents to ignore you and when they do you want them to talk to you? Also the directors of the orphanage came to stay with us and to say the least their not my favorite people, but the leave tomorrow for New York City and I finally get my room back! But, its going to t...
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