Believe In Time

My mind is at peace, for that one solitary moment there seems to be a sense of serenity from inner core that spreads to the rest of my body. Which is truly ironic, because there's never been more pressure on me. But, for this one moment I feel a sense of liberation from all ties to earth itself, as if suddenly I stopped walking and learned how to fly. My mind feels all-knowing, as if all the "wise" thoughts have flown into my mind. Such as, that death comes and how it shouldn't be taken as the end but, rather the beginning of a new world or peace and divinity. How a song can change your mood entirely, from sour to joy. How life seems like one long song, becoming so many generes from rock to a ballad by all the stages we go through in our life. I feel, the best way to express this feeling is complete and utter amazement. When you truly stop for that one moment and look at the talents, emotions, and their inner thoughts; you seem to stand there in utter stupefaction. Th...

Today, I swear was the worst day of my life. If you read from the older blogs I always talked about Walter. I still do. I know, its really unhealthy and everything but, at the same time its not that easy to give him up. Today he skipped AP Spanish and came to my gym class, seeing him there felt like a bullet to my heart. Its pure torture, to see him, every time I look at him all I feel is more alone. Every time he ignores me, its another stab at my heart, another shatter of my glass figurine heart. Every stare sends shivers down my spin, reminding me of all the torture I put him through. Its been two years since it all happened, and he still hasn't forgiven me. Not that I deserve it, the things I did I'm not proud of, thats no secret. But its been two years, your name is tattooed across my heart and it is breaking it to pieces. What's worse is that everyone who doesn't like me, loves him, go figure. Every time I think that I've evaded him, there he is! Like a ghost ...

Lately my life is in constant spirals, now that I'm a junior everything is all about college, grades, and who to be. But, amongst the flux I am standing in the middle wondering how long until I lose myself. I can barely do anything I love to, soon enough I will disappear in this mysterious melody. However, through the haze I see myself, smiling and it makes me look at the wondrous world I'm living in, how its filled with love, faith, and beauty. There is so much in this world I haven't seen, but why does my life have to be dictated by my education? This world is filled with the purest of all greatness which we have been blind to; while the world of economics and politics takes its place. There are reasons to strive for greatness, but the way we have been doing it hasn't gotten us anywhere. When will we live our life pure and free of the influence of others, we live our life compared to everyone else. How will we ever will learn to be true to ourselves when we look aroun...