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Faith, Love, LIVE!!


Lately my life is in constant spirals, now that I'm a junior everything is all about college, grades, and who to be. But, amongst the flux I am standing in the middle wondering how long until I lose myself. I can barely do anything I love to, soon enough I will disappear in this mysterious melody. However, through the haze I see myself, smiling and it makes me look at the wondrous world I'm living in, how its filled with love, faith, and beauty. There is so much in this world I haven't seen, but why does my life have to be dictated by my education? This world is filled with the purest of all greatness which we have been blind to; while the world of economics and politics takes its place. There are reasons to strive for greatness, but the way we have been doing it hasn't gotten us anywhere. When will we live our life pure and free of the influence of others, we live our life compared to everyone else. How will we ever will learn to be true to ourselves when we look around us and find our differences make us less? We dream about being who we are inside, what would happen if it wan't just in our dreams? What if we acted like who we truly are? Would life still be the same? What if the truth was revealed without deception or if we were known as who we are, what if we could be all open about everything? When I think about it, I would be who I really wanted and people would accept me. Is that what were truly scared of? Not being accepted? Everyday I wish people could see life as an opportunity, not another disappointment. What if we loved as if we've never been hurt, laughed like we never had, kissed if we never could live without, breathe with sweet relief, and live like we never had and to the fullest? What would happen then?

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