Dreaming of Freedom Well, here I am in physics class wanting to do nothing more than write, type all the thoughts that flow through my spirit and spill them on to these pages. Reveal all the secrets that I keep hidden in my heart. Well, my mother discovered that Tyler and I made love and is punishing me because of it. Forcing us to be unable to see each other, pay for tutoring, and be constantly tracked. I feel like I'm a deer trying to run from the hunter. And as the days go by I feel as though I'm slowly loosing my mind, I'm on complete lock down where the only things I can do are go to doctor's offices, work, school, and home. Its completely torturous, to the point where I've almost given up all hope completely and we almost broke up. But, through it all I know that even though the situation is difficult I will be twenty times as miserable if we weren't together. My mother has decided that I'm unfit to live life, because I love someone everything...
It's only been a day so maybe it's a little to early to start making judgements, but I have to write down what I'm thinking. My roommate is a complete goody-goody, she pretty much has never done a bad thing in her life and follows all the rules. Just looking at her makes me think of me, what I'd be if I followed all the rules and did what everyone told me. And it scares me. I mean breaking the rules and going crazy, is just the way of life I feel- everyone lies, everyone makes mistakes but we should live while we have the chance. I mean seriously what kind of person doesn't live a little? Most people are holed up in their dorms playing on their xboxes, and the rest are moving in today. Most of today has been sitting in my room wondering what I should do the rest of the day. I thought college would be little more than this, classes start in a week. So hopefully better news is soon to come, hopefully the winds change blow away this storm.
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