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God Hear Us


Wow it has seriously been forever since I have been on my blog. I've been so wrapped up in relationship issuses and school I've barely had enough time to breathe. Lately I have been the biggest player in the world because of the influences around me and I've fell to them, sadly. My life is in a constant spiral I finally see my overly perfect cousins beautiful and smart. Hard to not lose confidence, right? However the constant thoughts remain in my mind love is hard and dangerous becasue of the truth that lies between words the unspoken it all seems so close yet so far. Everything in a flux. Who am I to say life is hard when I have a roof, food, water, and dear faimly who love me why does the concept seem so forigen? To believe anyone cares is the most hardest concept to believe, because love is a different philosphy in itself, different idea, a different world. If you ever truly think about it you'll never know what it is exactly because once you feel the idea there is no words imaginable to explain it, true love is not found by the eyes rather the soul. When I was a child I was always told words are powerful, they make a person fill with confidence, can cause distress and grief and pain, however can make the biggest smiles appear on the faces of others. I have learned not to see with the eyes but with everything else, if you only see with your eyes you will never learn anything you will fall into the delusions and lies of mankind. God promises this life of freedom and wonder filled with joy and happiness in life with him if we follow Him however at points the idea is so hard to understand. God calls out to His childeren the only person that stands between God and ourselves is us, we can fill with doubts and turn away from God however God will never look away from us. He will stand by our side forever. Words fail me this morning there could be no words to describe God, because no matter what happens He will stand by our side a true forever friend as humans we need the love of others to feel complete to feel something anything beside the true feelings deep within side ourselves. My true question is what is love? Humans strive to understand the meaning claiming it exists within others however love to me is the stranger in the room you know nothing about however you want to know despite the risks the traps of love. God determines all love whether we believe it or not He controls the sheep He only tries to show us the way but we may constantly refuse however He will wait for us. Even in the darkest pits of hell God walks to visit those who have turned against Him. God hear us now we are Your sheep and we are humble before You. Help us find the way into Your light and help us believe in ourselves.

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