Believe In Time

The day I met Kyle was a fairytale I think I've been in one since I started dating him! Whenever I look in his eyes I know there is no one else in this world like him, how could I have been so blind? He is the one for me, that may sound crazy when your young but there is no one else's eyes I want to look into when I sleep in his chest there is no one else's voice I wanna hear when I have a bad day, I never want to have another because the Kyle will always be the one for me. He makes me laugh and smile, I think I've run out of words just to compare how much I love him. This fairytale I never want it to end as long as I live! I live for his love, what's crazy is that every time I see him it feels like a dream, not reality the way he cradles me and tells me I'm beautiful just the way I am, makes every bad thing fall from my mind. Today was a fairytale, and this time I didn't need a fairy god mother to make it possible! I didn't have to be a princess today...

Does time in life ever seem unrealistic like a dream? My life is running ahead of me like it's chasing something time with Kyle is beginning to slur together we've been going out for about 2 months already! That's crazy! Today was a moment from the notebook I swear it. I took Kyle for ice cream cauz the boy never had another flavor but vanilla! His lips were covered in ice cream and I leaned over and kissed him, and he also stuck my nose into my ice cream we were both laughing till it felt like we'd die out of lack of air. Everything with him makes the world seem brighter and beautiful like everyone is singing the sun on our faces makes me feel like theirs nothing in this world I'm missing. However I've distanced myself from Laura because she claims she is so appericative of what I do when she really isn't at all. Now she's taking my friend in my english class! I am just so annoyed. But I must be off reading, to do! See you soon! Liki

Lately everything in my life has been going pretty well. Yesterday was crazy, I hung out with my friend Callie just walking around town and we laughed till it hurt! But Kyle and I fell out yesterday he cancelled on me again! I was so upset! Callie brought up a good point what if I'm more into him? I left a really nasty voice mail on his phone Callie said he was a jerk because he would never do the things I do for him for me. That fueled my anger even more and he then told me he could go on our date after I made plans with Callie's family, because I was not having another lonely Saturday night. He told me he couldn't go before he even asked his mum! Least to say I was even more angry he lied to me! But I went on our date and I was pretty dang mad for the first half hour and I told him how I felt, I asked him why he really wanted me for my body or for me and I was really strict with letting him put his arm around me or whatever. But, I started to warm back up to him, I love ...

I know I haven't actually posted a post in a while. I've been with my boyfriend a lot lately, I pretty much look and feel dumb when I'm around him. I mean I am intellgent but when I'm around him I just I don't know. All I really know is I never want to be with anybody else, this year I've hardly had any time to do anything fun, dance or write; get my emotions out. Maybe it's because I haven't had a boyfriend in a long time and my heart is always broken so, when I finally found someone who does care, I always want to be around them. However I'm afraid because my friend brought up a good point to me that I maybe am more into him than he is in me I told him this, because I want him to know what's on my mind and he basically told me he thought that she was right. What does that mean??? Maybe all this relationship stuff is getting to my head I need to calm down. Plus he told me he can't be with me everyday which I have to accept to be honest thoug...

Today is another snow day from school. I learned I might have to get surgery, surgery! I'm so scared! Also my boyfriend has been give me the flake. It's just I'm scared to lose him that's the truth. Yes, I need to get a life. I'm just so bored! I'm sick as a dog so I can't go anywhere, there is nothing to do! I don't expect my boyfriend to drop everything, of course but I hate when people ignore me. Truthfully I haven't actually done much in the last few days I decided since my grades weren't too hot the first half of the year I should do better, but I'm all done with my homework. I'd rather be in school that's how bored I am! I dream of a life better than this, I want to see the world Italy, Paris, Australia, everywhere! I can only imagine. I know I have so much potential to do something great, however nothing comes. The winter grows on my clawing me down toward the dark depression that winter creates. It's hard when I can't ...