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Snow Day


Today is another snow day from school. I learned I might have to get surgery, surgery! I'm so scared! Also my boyfriend has been give me the flake. It's just I'm scared to lose him that's the truth. Yes, I need to get a life. I'm just so bored! I'm sick as a dog so I can't go anywhere, there is nothing to do! I don't expect my boyfriend to drop everything, of course but I hate when people ignore me. Truthfully I haven't actually done much in the last few days I decided since my grades weren't too hot the first half of the year I should do better, but I'm all done with my homework. I'd rather be in school that's how bored I am! I dream of a life better than this, I want to see the world Italy, Paris, Australia, everywhere! I can only imagine. I know I have so much potential to do something great, however nothing comes. The winter grows on my clawing me down toward the dark depression that winter creates. It's hard when I can't go anywhere. I'm stuck. Next post I'll write something interesting promise!

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