The second year is well into gear however, I find myself wondering how people find enjoyment in college because to be truthful this college lacks so much yet, I find myself attached to it. But, last night definitely hit me hard my best friend of 3 years told me she doesn't want to be my friend anymore calling me selfish claiming that I was holding her back and didn't want her to make new friends, and explained to me that she didn't want to be my friend since sophomore year which definitely hit deep. I'm sitting there wondering to myself, if you had an issue with me why didn't you just tell me? And as far as not wanting her to make other friends I have to disagree, I wanted to protect her from the people who made fun of her and talked badly about her behind her back those "friends" I wanted to protect her from, yes. But, I'm forced to look at the question why am I not more upset? When she told me that I was not upset as I expected to be, I just told her that she has to do what she believes is right, but to tell you the truth she will always be part of my memories there is no changing that. I also recently saw the ex who goes to my college, even though its been a year I still have feelings for him time, doesn't change how I feel about him, but again I must remember that love will come to me when its ready. I just have to have faith, I'd be surprised how far a little faith will take me.
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