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College of the Silent


So, the story of my life lately is not a very happy one. I'm in college now, a year earlier, I know I should be happy to be accepted. But, the truth is I couldn't be more miserable I've started to realize that home truly is where the heart is. I left school only to find that I miss it, I miss the pointless drama and the people who surrounded me, I miss the people who have broke down my wall. I've found college to be nothing but empty time and energy, unknown faces and hollow spaces. Right now the rain is pouring down onto the pavements it feels like the tears that run down my cheeks. Phone calls, skype, letters it doesn't make the difference any less. Its still another run down a path except your all alone. College can be filled with thousands of people but, the only difference is that everyone's following their own path, another world of their own. I wish a smiling face would cross my path rather than the twisters that surrond it, its as if I accidentally discovered the truth, that college is truly another world where teachers preach to us and tell us we're not in high school anymore. But, the truth is that high school was the land of cliques and friends but, it makes me question why I wanted to leave so badly. College is like survival of the fittest to see who can make it through alone changing the memories of the past to fit the present. Its like all the time you spend wanting to speak and change the world but, nothing comes it all fills the silence. Or rather, creates it.

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