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Is It worth?

If you ever have the crazy life like I do, you would understand this question very little. Because as we all know I have a boyfriend (yes my mom made an awfully big deal about it) but, the question is he worth it? I mean what is wrong with me is that I just broke up (as a friend) with someone else before this kid and my current bf doesn't understand that I need to adjust to the new situation in front of me. It is all new to me. So he technically thinks I'm annoying but the question is I am ever going back to the kid I knew? I mean before we were bf/gf we just flirted a lot but, it was fun I mean we could be ourselves no matter what, and we could talk about anything, but now he met one of my best friends and he talks to her more than me but, I think he believes I'm in a whole another world, which I kind am. I keep thinking that I wanna go back to when I could be myself and my freakin emotions would just stop making me so pushy and annoying but, it's the challenge that I have to face.


Here Alone
I thought it was
Just Me
All alone
Gone
Ashes surronded me
Then I look and see you
The day does look so blue
Till you dissapper
Like thin air
(Dedicated to my Dad)

A wish
One wish
One
My only hope
One
I'll never be alone

Inside
Dawn breaks, my heart falls
My memory fades
I am all alone
Empty, gone
Forever Inside

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