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As I need

Hey. What's up? Well tonight is just one plain old life as me. I mean I'm just thinking about everything at one moment. My head is rushing. It's as though time has been something that was here and disappeared. Time to me is like some elusion it doesn't feel real. Because as moments pass us by things disappear along with it. "For some [time] there never is enough. For some a minute seems like an eternity. But, for Jesse Tuck it didn't exist." (Tuck Everlasting the movie) To me though time is just something that the perfect moment is something that just goes too fast. Then when the moments of struggle,hate,and fear; normally are the one's we remember most. As our memories fade life can drop before our eyes then we begin to fade to dust.

One Rose
That's what I left behind
One simple little rose
So dead and bruised
You could have choosed that new one too
But you chose me
So dead and used

My Heart
Here's my heart
So big and black
You can't find it
It's gone
So dull and gray
I wish it would go away
My heart's see-thru
Like an open door
Like the rain it pours
Take it if you want
Here is it's only cry
"Why?"

This isn't how I always feel. Just sometimes when I think about sad things.

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