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Runaway



Well I have to be honest my life at points can be breakable but, now it can be at it's worst point. I mean as my life falls I fall with it. I mean at points of my life I just wanna run. I mean my friends are now ignoring me. As if I don't exist. I mean but, there is something they don't really realize I will go to being a loner just to smile one more time and I don't need people's help to smile. As much as people think I do; I don't. I would rather have the love of Jesus and God more than a lot of things I will turn also to true friends (like you Kelly) to help me through things in my life that could bring me to my knees. Because Jesus and God I know your there. You are there and I have been ignoring your calls to me. I can be foolish but sometimes I fall more than I should. But this time I owe an apology to God he gave me such lovely things and I don't appreciate them, such as life itself. He didn't have to but he did because he loves me and everyone just the same. God I am sorry.I mean I love you above all things. I do. Jesus I have given my heart to you because I am truly your sheep.

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