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Falling Hard

Well, as if life couldn't get more confusing, it does. I mean as strange as it gets it goes to strangest because here's my problem my best friend tells me something about my boyfriend and my bf has no idea what the hell she's talking about. Strange. My life apparently enjoys freaking me out. Also my bf is not a christian so it kinda is hard because he says it's all made off of lies. So it's hard to know does God still want me to be with him or not? Also he hasn't spoken to me in a few days because I got mad because it's really hard to know who tells me the truth anymore. It's like I'm falling from the high place I once stood. So really all I need is to know what I should do it's hard to know anymore because it confuses me. I really want my bf to become a christian like me. But, it's between him and God if he rejects it he's rejecting our holy Father. It is not my responsibility to make him become christian that is between him and Father.

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