Little Christmas Tree

I still cannot believe my Aunt wrote such beautiful words about me. It amazes me, because as I've gotten older I've realized she's become my guardian angel on earth. She is always there for me, to help me find God again or when I'm in anguish or suffering to help me believe in him with everything I have. So truly my Aunt is one of the people I don't deserve to have because she is way too amazing and always believes in God. While, I sometimes fall into doubts and can be cruel and mean; at the point where I begin to reject the Lord as if he were some personal slave of mine. God is the Creator he can do anything He wants. "I am not afraid of anything in creation. I know the Creator."(quoted by Todd from the Christ Miller series)

"Life is a gift that you can have; but can lose or never return." (quoted by me) As it is said to be true life is that special gift you have found under the Christmas tree. It is that cool breeze in the hot and humid weather. That one person who will stand by you no matter what. It is the joy we live everyday. However we may forget to be thankful for what we live, the air we breathe, the people we have, and God. But, God is much harder to explain He is that perfect creature that created us un-perfect's. He is the one who created this earth we stand on, the one who makes our meals so we can be healthy, the one who believes in us even when we don't believe in Him. He is amazing and He is the one who loves each and every one of us.

I know what a struggle life can be and I wanna say that if you trust Him the answer inside of you will always come, while He lives inside you helping you through the pain. I said this to my boyfriend today but, it can also apply to God "He just makes my skin wanna jump out of place. I mean their is no softer lips than his. His skin is at the perfect temperature. Also when I freak out he keeps me sane."(quoted by me) Also another quote that was actually from the song Electricity from Billy Elliot "I can't really explain it. I haven't got the words. It's a feeling that you can't control. I suppose it's like forgetting losing who you are. But at the same time something makes you whole."

Well, I'll be back soon

Love Always
~Ella

Comments

Bound With Invisible Chains

Well, its early on a Tuesday I came into work early due to the absence of my coworker so here I am. Its such a peaceful morning so far, I can hear the coffee maker from the kitchen and silence. Its a relatively nice feeling, rather than the phone constantly shrilling, demanding immediate attention. Even my mother hasn't gotten to work yet, which is simply bizarre considering her job is her life. So, I'm sitting at the front desk typing away on my laptop and making coffee for my mother. She just walked in wondering where I was for most of the time, which it actually took me a half an hour to drive to work and I stopped along the way at a recreation center, just sitting in the field. It was so peaceful, now the office is starting to get a bit fussy as most type furiously across their keyboards and the morning coffee is quickly taken as, a crutch, for most tired employees. Some have not even stepped foot in the office, but rather chose an extra hour of sleep. Its going to be a lon...

Wind Runner

Well, I'm up to about 3 posts in one day. I ran away a little while ago. But, I came back like I always do. Because, wherever I go they will find me and bring me back to where I started right here (in my house) I'll be writing most of the night anyway. It's about midnight here in NY. So, yup. Well, this is how the whole running away thing got started. I had been merely on the computer watching 'Picture This' on youtube. A simple evening for me, but then I hear my step-dad (ok, ewww I cannot say that word he should never have the word 'dad' in that title or whatever. I never liked him and never will. So I'll call him Mr. X.) Mr. X had called me over to the computer to sign into my itunes account because they had gotten a bill saying that itunes was used up to 60 dollars. Anyway, how that had actually happened was an accident, you see I had a graduation party for graduating middle school. So I had wanted an itunes card and, I would pay Mr. X back. So I ma...

My 100th post!

First, off I just wanna say thanks for all the people who read and listen to the struggles in my life. Second, I'm in complete shock that this is my 100th post! So, thanks for being there for me for four years! Anyway, to get this post going, I wanna just write.... it probably won't make a lot of sense when I finish but it'll be different, to say the least. So, Kataya goes back to Ukraine on Saturday and at this point I am pretty upset that she's leaving, she's become a little sister to me, and her smile could light up the whole world. However, in a malicious and selfish way I am kind of happy because for the last month my mom was too busy with Kataya to really notice me, strange how you want your parents to ignore you and when they do you want them to talk to you? Also the directors of the orphanage came to stay with us and to say the least their not my favorite people, but the leave tomorrow for New York City and I finally get my room back! But, its going to t...

Believe In Time

Search This Blog