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Mirror, mirror on the wall who is the one who saw through it all?


Don't you ever get a feeling, that you can't exactly explain? It's a feeling that you can't speak of because, it hurts too much? Like, sometimes you can't go outside because you can't handle seeing the world? That's how I'm feeling right now. I don't want to see anyone. I can't really explain, I've never felt like this before. I'm thinking about love, I mean don't you ever feel you never actually knew the meaning of the word? I want to say how I think I would want love to be like. I would want to be able to date someone but, be able to walk away and still feel like myself and not always have to be with that person to feel safe, and I would still want to act like friends romance doesn't always have to be all the time. Still be able to joke around with that person; still be able to do stupid things(like shove mud in their face or something) Still be able to feel the joys of being a kid and to be able to be independent. Have your own ideas and not have your life, revolve around them you still need to see yourself when you look in the mirror not something that they created. Still be able to laugh so loud your lungs hurt. Still be able to love that person but, be able to look in the mirror and see yourself. Be able to smile that smile that shows the little girl inside of you. Share yourself with the world, you are everyone's. Smile at the butcher, race with your best friend's siblings, have a pillow fight with your best friend, still chase your neighbor down the street to try and put makeup on him, still let your mom tuck you in at night and read you a story, still tell you boyfriend he's weird. Still love life just like you always have. Still watch the sun set and rise, watch the moon rise and stare at the stars. Still save the kisses for the 'right moment' still be happy and love being you. Still make those dumb faces at your little brother. Be who you are and still love someone. Just be yourself and not that girl in the mirror. Because that girl in the mirror only wants to been queen bee and she will eventually begin to take over you till you can't recognize yourself. As the old saying says "How do you live when no one's watching?"

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