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My 100th post!



First, off I just wanna say thanks for all the people who read and listen to the struggles in my life. Second, I'm in complete shock that this is my 100th post! So, thanks for being there for me for four years! Anyway, to get this post going, I wanna just write.... it probably won't make a lot of sense when I finish but it'll be different, to say the least. So, Kataya goes back to Ukraine on Saturday and at this point I am pretty upset that she's leaving, she's become a little sister to me, and her smile could light up the whole world. However, in a malicious and selfish way I am kind of happy because for the last month my mom was too busy with Kataya to really notice me, strange how you want your parents to ignore you and when they do you want them to talk to you? Also the directors of the orphanage came to stay with us and to say the least their not my favorite people, but the leave tomorrow for New York City and I finally get my room back! But, its going to take me days just to get rid of the old lady smell, (otherwise known as Chanel No. 5) but, at least I'll have my sanctuary back so I can write and blog in my own space. To get back to the directors, they've been alright honestly, they are just mooching off my mother who basically ends up paying for their exploration of New York City. Because they only come here with $50 for a week. Now, that's insanity. Plus, my mother heard them talking about us and laughing, so it doesn't look good. And don't even get me started about how frustrating it is when somebody translates to and from Russian, you don't even know what their saying! But, tonight was different they were a bit nicer than usual, so I suppose bribing with tours and souvenirs them payed off. However, outside the land of family is a forest full of problems, where all my friends only know my name when they need help, but to be honest I love helping other people but, at some points I just wonder why me? One needs my help staying out of a mental hospital, the other to help them from going to jail, its just crazy! But, it does make me appreciate the somewhat sanity I have. So far the summer's been a complete drag, usually I've been working so, I suppose that makes the time pass. Really I haven't been doing much, its been a summer of working and trying to make the time pass. Which is a bit boring, but at least not as insane as it could be. I actually just realized the other day I've been single for six months, which for me is a new record. And what's even more astonishing is the fact that I'm not pining for any guy at all, I admitted how I felt to one of my exs and he rejected me and I'm actually not all that upset. Honestly at this point I feel older, as if all this wisdom just slammed into my head, I want the right person to come around of course, just like anyone else but I can wait for it hey, it'll be worth it; that I believe. So, the world has been pretty silent, which usually wouldn't be my favorite thing but right now, its okay I'm learning how to brave it out.

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  1. Bride of the LambAugust 6, 2012 at 11:51 AM

    I hope you don't mind that I nominated your blog for a Sisterhood of World Bloggers Award. It's in my blogpost: http://christ-bride-blog.blogspot.com/2012/08/sisterhood-of-world-bloggers-award.html

    - Aunt T

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  2. LikiAugust 11, 2012 at 9:38 AM

    no thats amazing! thank you so much! i'm so excited!

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