So, my blog finally was updated! Yay! I have to admit I was a little hesitant to change the design but, I did its time for a change. My office this morning is completely dull, nothing has been happening so its nice because I do get more time to relax and just be myself so at least that's good. Plus, to make matters better, this morning I woke up completely rested and ready to face the day. It was such a good morning even though as soon as I came downstairs it was hectic, I felt happy. I've decided that its time for a change, when I wrote yesterday I was sad and depressed but, today is much better I realized that I have so many good people around me; they care for me and believe in me and have been there through it all. So, it struck me why am I wasting my time on people who didn't matter, who only punished me for being myself? It might take a while for me to get over him, but you know what? Who cares. If he couldn't see how amazing and different I was then that's his loss, not mine. I know, I may not be the simplest person alive nor the most complex but, I have issues and that's just a part of life there is no way around that. So, all we have to do is overcome them, it sounds easier than it is but, it is possible. There are so many people in the world not everyone is going to like you, that you can't control but, you can control how you react to it. How you deal, with your issues, this whole experience has given me some new light, that things like this happen and they truly shed light on who your real friends are and who will just be in your life for a short period of time. Honestly, I don't regret Jose at all but, rather feel that it helped me grow as not only a person but, in experience. It also puts into perspective the people that surrond me love me and care about me, and there is nothing else that can compare to that. There will be so many people that will try to knock me down, but I have to have the power to stand up and face it; because if I never stand again that is my fault. Life is full of challenges and hardships, times that will knock you off your feet and will make you rethink your choices and decisions but, if it wasn't for those times the good times would seem less important, and less eccentric than anything else. So, I'm going to follow the advice before me, I need to live like I'm dying, because if we forget that than the life we dreamed of will cease to exist. Here is a poem that my coworker shared with me and I have to admit, that this puts things with Jose in an interesting twist.
I walk down the street
There is a hole in the sidewalk
I fall in
I'm lost. . . I'm helpless
It isn't my fault
It takes me forever to find a way out
I walk down the same street
There's a deep hole in the sidewalk
I pretend I don't see it
I fall in again
I can't believe I'm in the same place
But it isn't my fault
It still takes a long time to get out
I walk down the same street
There's a deep hole in the sidewalk
I see it there
I still fall in. . . it's a habit
My eyes are open
I know where I am
It is my fault
I get out immediately
I walk down the same street
There's a deep hole in the sidewalk
I walk around it
I walk down another street
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