Believe In Time

Well, as if life couldn't get more confusing, it does. I mean as strange as it gets it goes to strangest because here's my pro blem my best friend tells me something about my boyfriend and my bf has no idea what the hell she's talking about. Strange. My life apparently enjoys freaking me out. Also my bf is not a christian so it kinda is hard because he says it's all made off of lies. So it's hard to know does God still want me to be with him or not? Also he hasn't spoken to me in a few days because I got mad because it's really hard to know who tells me the truth anymore. It's like I'm falling from the high place I once stood. So really all I need is to know what I should do it's hard to know anymore because it confuses me. I really want my bf to become a christian like me. But, it's between him and God if he rejects it he's rejecting our holy Father. It is not my responsibility to make him become christian that is between him and Father.

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Well I have to be honest my life at points can be breakable but, now it can be at it's worst point. I mean as my life falls I fall with it. I mean at points of my life I just wanna run. I mean my friends are now ignoring me. As if I don't exist. I mean but, there is something they don't really realize I will go to being a loner just to smile one more time and I don't need people's help to smile. As much as people think I do; I don't. I would rather have the love of Jesus and God more than a lot of things I will turn also to true friends (like you Kelly) to help me through things in my life that could bring me to my knees. Because Jesus and God I know your there. You are there and I have been ignoring your calls to me. I can be foolish but sometimes I fall more than I should. But this time I owe an apology to God he gave me such lovely things and I don't appreciate them, such as life itself. He didn't have to but he did because he loves me and everyone ju

Hey. What's up? Well tonight is just one plain old life as me. I mean I'm just thinking about everything at one moment. My head is rushing. It's as though time has been something that was here and disappeared. Time to me is like some elusion it doesn't feel real. Because as moments pass us by things disappear along with it. "For some [time] there never is enough. For some a minute seems like an eternity. But, for Jesse Tuck it didn't exist." (Tuck Everlasting the movie) To me though time is just something that the perfect moment is something that just goes too fast. Then when the moments of struggle,hate,and fear; normally are the one's we remember most. As our memories fade life can drop before our eyes then we begin to fade to dust. One Rose That's what I left behind One simple little rose So dead and bruised You could have choosed that new one too But you chose me So dead and used My Heart Here's my heart So big and black You ca