Believe In Time

These last few days I swear have been the worst in my life everything has seemed to go wrong. My fairytale boyfriend broke up with me, my best friend has everything I ever wanted, the boy who wants nothing to do with me I'm obsessed with, and I think everything in this life I want is out of my reach. At least I got to experience the joy before the downfall and pain, I think I'm better off sticking to my quiet book-nerdish self. But why? Why always me? I wish for once I could stop being me, for one day maybe I'd understand everything. The only good thing that happened in my life these last couple days was that I have the chance to escape to Costa Rica for surfing lessons. My best friend Maria is so lucky everything in her life is always perfect, the boyfriend who loves her, perfect grades, with adoring friends crowding around her like paparazzi, what do I have nothing. It hurts more than I can bare a shell of a human being, the hurt and pain bottling up in my brain, lying to

It was southern Alabama 1993 it seemed like only yesterday when I felt that hot and sticky summer air on my back and felt the grass between my toes. My mind began to wander to the sweet dream my life was, I had been laying in a green field listening to everything in almost perfect harmony form the birds to the breeze of the wind. Everything was perfect. I smiled to myself because I knew that there was no way this could be any better. My eyes fluttered open to look at Daniel who stood looking down into my eyes, smiling the same dopey grin I was. He leans a little closer to attempt at kissing me; he was in for another surprise. Before he could touch my lips, I turned my face away and slid out from underneath him, I stuck my tongue out and said, “Catch me if you can!” then took off running down the field. Laughing all the while, when he came running up and down the hills after me. He finally caught me by the old carousel, pinning me down on the ground while I giggled; he let my little g