Believe In Time

Wow it has seriously been forever since I have been on my blog. I've been so wrapped up in relationship issuses and school I've barely had enough time to breathe. Lately I have been the biggest player in the world because of the influences around me and I've fell to them, sadly. My life is in a constant spiral I finally see my overly perfect cousins beautiful and smart. Hard to not lose confidence, right? However the constant thoughts remain in my mind love is hard and dangerous becasue of the truth that lies between words the unspoken it all seems so close yet so far. Everything in a flux. Who am I to say life is hard when I have a roof, food, water, and dear faimly who love me why does the concept seem so forigen? To believe anyone cares is the most hardest concept to believe, because love is a different philosphy in itself, different idea, a different world. If you ever truly think about it you'll never know what it is exactly because once you feel the idea there is

I promise that I'm not so far away.This Christmas is so close however the gifts to me don't matter so much this is the day Jesus was born the day he came into this world as an innocent child and grew into an adult however did Jesus ever know how much He meant to us? Every year I walk into a mall and see people rush from store to store in the designer boots, bags that cost more than my house the skinny body I could only wish I could have while I appear as a girl in glasses carrying my book. I begin to see that even though they believe they have it all I am the lucky winner while I see those dropping more money than imaginable I had the best gift in the world one money could not buy the true meaning of Christmas. This is the time of the year when Jesus came to Earth and saved us all. However the feeling of guilt sits in my stomach because Jesus died on that cross for me and I whispered quietly to myself how could I have been so selfish? Jesus died just for my sake and for the res

This ride that were on, it may be hard to understand it may be hard to think we're not alone however God has been standing there next to us this whole time, telling us everything is alright and not to worry because he will always be there for us. God has been in our own secret garden in pur hearts he sits under the white arch on the bench waiting for us and we try so hard to reach Him we try to extend our arms out so we will be caught in his embrace till the tears fall.