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Torn between two

Evening. Well, my day is going down hill since this morning with my now short hair that curls I look like a 'Hairspray' character. My best friend thinks I hate her, my mom thinks I hate her, my other best friend can't tell me anything because her mother doesn't trust me, I showed up late to most of my classes, I have too much homework, and I'm feeling light headed. I mean, my day stinks. I mean here's the thing. My two best friends I feel are having a competition and they don't even know about it! I mean it's like I can't decide which one to spend my time with. I mean I love them both the same, but I'm only one person. I feel as though I'm being torn into two different directions. I'll admit I've been very grouchy lately. But, it's because I have so much on my plate. I just can't handle it. As if I were in a boxing match I didn't know was going to happen. Also I have been trying to handle my comprehension skills. But, th

Beautiful? I think....

Well the day went by slowly. School inches by as fast as a snail. But, otherwise I was thinking about beauty lately. I mean most girls don't feel beautiful and I am definitely one of those girls. I mean not everyone isn't born beautiful. I mean I've been overweight since I was a kid so I got use to the teasing but, it stills hurts inside that I'm not skinny but this is what happens to girls we hate ourselves and we want to change everything about us. Our hair, our face, our body, and so on; why do we keep doing this to ourselves? It hurts so much. Then this picture is what we look like we look like crap. We hurt ourselves because we want to look a certain way or be a certain way so people will like us. And as time goes on we begin to feel that everything is wrong with us, that we'll never be likable. I mean what is happening to the world?I mean look at that before and after why, is the world bringing us down? Why do we have to be stunning to impress everybody? i m

New school

Well, the big day is tomorrow. I get married. No, just kidding tomorrow is the first day of High School! AHHHHHH!I am petrified I mean a new school, new teachers, more homework, and the people you hate most another year with them. I mean I already have enough problems my freaky dreams included. I mean as the days get closer to HS the nightmares got worse , and now when I wake up in the morning I have to actually be somewhere! If I get excepted to go to London, England have to raise $3,440! I mean at mean at my age that's crazy talk. Well, here comes school, still dull. Now I won't have as much time to write my stories cause I'll be like, saving the world before lunch. Wow. However my computer is dying and I have to go. Wish me luck.

The Butterfly

Good morning. I know it's early for those who wait till 10 to get up. Time passes quickly school is only a few days away. I'm nervous however, not as nervous as I thought I would be. Time is like a butterfly, when it starts as a little caterpillar then it metamorphosis into a beautiful butterfly. Free to fly high still able to look down upon the world. Free to see a beautiful world from high above. Till the moon turns full the butterfly falls back to it's home down in the center of the universe where it rest until morning dawn. To fly off to find God's light at the brightest. On the journey even. if the struggles and pain hurt the butterfly won't stop. God loves all creatures He take the butterfly on the tip of His finger. He strokes the butterfly's wings and says to him "Believe little one that I am always here. All you have to do is look closely and you will find me. I shall call you my little lamb spread the word of me." The butterfly flew from

Kids

Parents' these days don't understand what all of us are about. Kids Parents think were small When we were born tall Think were too young We've just begun Were big and strong Afraid it might go wrong? Don't Because we won't You may think that were naive That's what you believe When you thought we were small It wasn't that at all I have always hated how parents underestimate kids and teens because we have the power to change the world. Do you remember that relative that would always would pinch your cheek and give you big fat gross kisses? My parents never treat me older than a five year old. I mean all am saying is don't be afraid to express your mind. My Mind Could never be shared No one ever cared Here it lies Here it dies Never been used It's always loosed

Amazing with a drop of Ginger

It's been a while. Not much has happened lately, I mean my boyfriend and I are no longer. What happened basically was this; I mean I was on vacation last week in Maine. Then I realized I couldn't take it I mean this guy has caused so much drama in my life. I realized that I didn't need the drama and that I didn't like them as much as I thought I did. Also, I met someone else so basically as bad as it sounds I flirted with him, but the thing is he lives in another state. So it totally bites. But lately I've been listening to David Archuleta's new hit "I'm a little too not over you" because that's how I feel about my -ex. So I'm single and I like it. Because there's no drama for me. I mean High School freshman year is making me petrified. Trust me. But, I know I'll get through it just like I do everything else. But you know today I feel like, amazing. I guess this is how I'm suppose to feel amazing and love who I am just the