Believe In Time

Do you ever wonder why we're around? Why the Earth still moves forward? When we feel as though our world has stopped completely in motion. My world is undeniably deleterious, in other words bad. My true issue is not within the human mind's grasp but rather the long past dreams fading upon my windowsill. I've failed at life so many times I don't know how to find the hope I love. When God calls my name I don't hear Him, lost in our own human selfishness. Crying out to the sky in the rain calling Him, He hears us. The hardest part of being human is to accept your mistakes, to start over. When we cry out to the Lord have we ever asked Him what He wanted? Everything in this world happens for a reason, what is His reason? If only life had the way to tell us everything is alright. As people in this world we need our wake up call and to realize God is here however, when we are blinded by our own wants and needs, God says to us that He was there we just didn't realize it

Today I am happy but, the adrenaline is running thin. Lately the kid I like has been avoiding me and rejecting me now, I don't know what to do. However, I have Chris, a new guy friend I have now I'm starting to wonder have I have I fallen all over again? Oh no. It's been raining for the last few days so my eating habits have been getting bad. I need to go out, badly. However the question is how bad do I want Walter's friendship is enough to fight for it? Or is it the time we went or separate ways? The choice breaks me apart everytime. But what I have learned I may not know how to do everything right but, I know how to be me and that the best gift anyone could have given me. Love, Ella