Believe In Time

Today was an adventure lately I've been seeming to have more and more of those, which is what life is all about the adventure. I am dating a guy I truly like and so far everything has been pretty good, I just can't explain how I feel around him. Everything about him is different he's so gentle to my fragile heart and helps me heal it, after this whole year of dating around I think it was worth it. The only thing I wish is that I could take away the pain of those I hurt. The way this guy kisses me it's enough to keep me silent for hours (and if you know me I don't shut up, ever). However I'm still have problems with my best friend she's dating this guy I don't trust because of rumors I hear about him and how my best friend can't have a life and talk to her friends but he can. I feel like this guy is controlling her because the two are joined at the hip! I mean I don't know how to approach her anymore I mean we talk but I still feel like were dista...

Today it felt like I had been woken up from a very long dream, a dream of fantasy wonder and no evil. Spinning around in my head is the ideas of good and evil, how some believe evil was made by man or God. How people can be evil or can become evil, but what does that actually tell us about society? Evil in my opinion is a myth an excuse for people to blame others a way for people to explain what they do not know. Evil, is just an idea that we create to blind ourselves from the truth the way to do wrong. Humanity has impulses much like the nervous system however we have impulses of lust, greed, and jealousy; common human emotions however people are not evil we are great and can accomplish wondrous things. When the ways of rebellion and misbehaviour tempt us we should think that we built the large cities that surround us today, we built the great architecture from Ancient Greece to Rome we painted the Age of the Renaissance we created the past and we have the chance now to change the fut...

Wow it has seriously been forever since I have been on my blog. I've been so wrapped up in relationship issuses and school I've barely had enough time to breathe. Lately I have been the biggest player in the world because of the influences around me and I've fell to them, sadly. My life is in a constant spiral I finally see my overly perfect cousins beautiful and smart. Hard to not lose confidence, right? However the constant thoughts remain in my mind love is hard and dangerous becasue of the truth that lies between words the unspoken it all seems so close yet so far. Everything in a flux. Who am I to say life is hard when I have a roof, food, water, and dear faimly who love me why does the concept seem so forigen? To believe anyone cares is the most hardest concept to believe, because love is a different philosphy in itself, different idea, a different world. If you ever truly think about it you'll never know what it is exactly because once you feel the idea there is ...

I promise that I'm not so far away.This Christmas is so close however the gifts to me don't matter so much this is the day Jesus was born the day he came into this world as an innocent child and grew into an adult however did Jesus ever know how much He meant to us? Every year I walk into a mall and see people rush from store to store in the designer boots, bags that cost more than my house the skinny body I could only wish I could have while I appear as a girl in glasses carrying my book. I begin to see that even though they believe they have it all I am the lucky winner while I see those dropping more money than imaginable I had the best gift in the world one money could not buy the true meaning of Christmas. This is the time of the year when Jesus came to Earth and saved us all. However the feeling of guilt sits in my stomach because Jesus died on that cross for me and I whispered quietly to myself how could I have been so selfish? Jesus died just for my sake and for the res...

This ride that were on, it may be hard to understand it may be hard to think we're not alone however God has been standing there next to us this whole time, telling us everything is alright and not to worry because he will always be there for us. God has been in our own secret garden in pur hearts he sits under the white arch on the bench waiting for us and we try so hard to reach Him we try to extend our arms out so we will be caught in his embrace till the tears fall.

Man, everything has been crazy lately. Love is the most dangerous game I could play, because I somehow secretly know that feelings will get crushed and there is always too many expectations that are impossible. However , why does it make us all feel so beautiful inside? Why does it make us feel amazing and other emotions that suddenly rush to the surface because you feel so happy. The the thoughts slowly drift into your mind till they become part of your every thought, and when you stay in love it isn't so bad. However the drifting feeling of love makes everything hard and painful and you you begin to wonder why fell in love to begin with. The hours upon hours of crying and desperate texts and calls then turning to anger where you burn all their pictures and listen to Taylor Swift's "Picture to burn" more times than you can count backwards. Love they say, is only infatuation when you're younger however when you get older the more you realize how fake love had beco...

“ Our deepest fear is not that we are inadequate. Our deepest fear is that we are powerful beyond measure. It is our light, not our darkness that most frightens us. We ask ourselves, Who am I to be brilliant, gorgeous, talented, fabulous? Actually, who are you not to be? You are a child of God. Your playing small does not serve the world. There is nothing enlightened about shrinking so that other people won't feel insecure around you. We are all meant to shine, as children do. We were born to make manifest the glory of God that is within us. It's not just in some of us; it's in everyone. And as we let our own light shine, we unconsciously give other people permission to do the same. As we are liberated from our own fear, our presence automatically liberates others. ” As we go through life we worry what everyone else thinks when really we forget ourselves and how we are amazing no matter what anyone says, no matter how much life hits us we must stand up for ours...